Losing Changes My Life

Have you ever lost any precious possession of yours and regretted losing it, and hoped to get it back if you could? Most people have had this experience at least once before. For example losing something like cash is the most common experience. Another one is to have lost your lover. I think that loss not only has one meaning in our life, but also means a small different each person. Of course I’ve had those experiences, too.

When I was an elementary school student, in the summer vacation, I spent ordinary life the same as others, and I enjoyed it. I went to school with friends of mine, I took part in a summer festival several times, and so on. However one happening changed my life dramatically.
One day I answered the phone at home, but no one replied to me, keeping silent throughout. My mother asked me why I didn’t answer my father. Then I couldn't understand entirely what she said. She began to talk with someone after I handed the phone to her. I had a strange something in my right ear. I tried whether my right ear could hear or not. It was time that I lost an important part of myself. I realized what happened to me. I wasn’t able to use my right ear. A doctor, Ms. Akimoto, my family doctor since childhood, told me it was caused by some virus from mumps, and there was no idea how to cure it yet. She also said “If the medicine at present would develop better in the future, it might be impossible for your right ear to get back.” She looked sorry while she told me about detail for my mother and me. Even now I remember the experiences of that day well. I guess losing the sense of hearing was so serious that I was suffered from deafness then.

When I was in hospital to examine my ear during summer vacation, I'd considered the reason why it was me that lost the sense of hearing. I tried to understand that it was no use suffering in my brain but I wouldn't allow the fact. I'd just lost one of my parts. Nevertheless I couldn't help feeling an inferiority complex about my ear. In fact I've felt some differences between me and others. First of all, I have to be more careful than before in communicating. I always keep the right side of person as I can hear well. Secondly most people tend to forget about it with passage of time though. I have to tell same explanation again. People don’t aware of my deafness because this sick can’t see. If I want someone to know it, there is only way to tell. Finally I do have danger of losing the other ear at any time. I can't declare that I'm never going to lose it even if its possibility is low.

However as I've gradually grown up, I have been able to change negative ideas into positive ones. I found one idea of my own way; people always think it is natural that people regret losing something and try to get it back as much as possible. Because we are able to realize the importance of things after we lost. I guess we can supply other things instead of losing ones in almost cases. Unfortunately we have more cases in which we cannot get it back than the one in witch we can get it back. Therefore I want people to think again of all of the things you have now, about the values. And I hope you are thankful to be able to live naturally before it is too late. I’ve never been able to hear with my right ear, but I’ve never forgot learning from my right ear.